sometimes i wonder if there really is someone out there made for me.  if there’s someone who will hold me when the world gets to be too much and who will wipe away my tears and remind me to eat and make me tea.  who will want to watch the same movies and who will want to do the same things.  someone who won’t have to settle because we’ll do everything together.  someone who i won’t disappoint, and who won’t disappoint me.  i wonder if i’m capable.  of loving, again.  it didn’t work out well the last time.  i ruined it.  i ruin everything, it seems.